Runaway train

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

A pensar na vida e no quanto é dificil vivê-la...
Por vezes apetece-me desistir disto tudo... deixar de ser um fardo para todos...
Cansada de ser mal interpretada e de remar contra a maré...

Dou muitas vezes comigo a viver no passado, a tentar reviver o que já não existe mais...
Pois nem todas as coisas más que vivi se comparam com o que estou a viver agora.
Muitas vezes tenho saudades até do mal que me fizeste naquele lugar em que todos viviamos...
E acabo sempre por amaldiçoar as minhas escolhas e as tuas...

As cobranças já caem sobre mim em cada canto da casa e eu simplesmente deixei de existir no presente...
Não tenho nada e é esse mesmo nada que vem ter comigo a cada minuto do meu dia...

Para ti é sempre tudo tão facil... Tens os teus sonhos e as tuas escolhas...
E a culpada de todos os erros que espera por ti em casa ao final do dia...
Aquela que nunca pode estar triste, doente ou deprimida...
Aquela que tem que esquecer o vazio em que se tornou a propria vida para poder agradar quem chega... para não gerar sentimento de culpa a quem é feliz...

... feeling as lost as possible...

You're Gone...

Dry the tears behind my eyes
When I whisper your name
You said you’d come here everynight
Just to hear me sing

Everybody knows that I don’t wanna grow
Everybody knows that I don’t wanna know
Everybody knows that you’re gone

Ah,don’t you feel alive
When you dance between my thoughts
You swore to come here everynight
Just to sing our song

Hurry up and please just hold my hand
So I can be released

"They say that poets must have an unrequited love
As all lovers must have thought provoking fears

But holding on to you means letting go of pain
Means letting go of tears
Means letting go of rain
Means letting go of what's not real
Holding on to you"

Bent

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces

Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Será a infelicidade um meio viavel para chegar a um fim?

Letting the cables sleep

You in the dark
You in the pain
You on the run
Living a hell
Living your ghost
Living your end
Never seem to get in the place that I belong
Dont wanna lose the time
Lose the time to come

Whatever you say its alright
Whatever you do its all good
Whatever you say its alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

You in the sea
On a decline
Breaking the waves
Watching the lights go down
Letting the cables sleep

Whatever you say its alright
Whatever you do its all good
Whatever you say its alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
Well wrap the world around it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

Im a stranger in this town
Im a stranger in this town

If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way
Im a stranger in this town
Im a stranger in this town

How do you redefine something that never really had a name?

... Never felt so out of place...

Those magic changes

"What's that playing on the radio,
why do I start swaying to and fro
I have never heard that song before,
but if I don't hear it anymore
It's still familiar to me, sends a thrill right through me
Cause those chords remind me of the night that
I first fell in love to
Those magic changes my heart arranges
A melody that's never the same,
a melody that's calling your name
It begs you please, come back to me
Please, return to me, don't go away again,
oh make them play again
The music I wanna hear is once again,
you whisper in my ear
Oh my darling, I'll be waiting by the radio,
you'll come back to me someday, I know
Been so long since our last goodbye, but I'm singin' as I cry
While the bass is sounding, while the drums are pounding
Beatings of my broken heart will rise the first place of the charts
Oh my heart arranges, oh those magic changes"

"... inspiration is what you are to me...

... little drops of rain, whispers of the pain...

...tears of loves lost in the days gone by..."


Obrigada pelo que fizeste por mim e por seres quem és...

continuas a ser especial...

Mean Sleep

"How could the clouds tease us into thinking it might rain ?
How could the need deceive us into thinking things might change ?


I had a mean, mean sleep over you
And it hurts, hurts coming back to life


I am lost to the longing
I am moulded by the memory


Had to shut down half my mind


Just to still the space you left behind"


A verdade nunca pode ser verdadeiramente dita...

just falling to pieces...

Take me away

Dias de solidão

As saudades corroem-me como acido...
E tudo o que deixei para trás torna-se mais pesado em dias como este...
O silencio tornou-se ensurdecedor...
E o vazio é friamente caótico...

Perco-me a cada passo e não faço outra coisa senão andar para trás...
Será que evolução equivale a sofrimento?
E para ser tão perfeita quanto é suposto tenho que rasgar tudo aquilo que eu sou?

As exigencias atingem um perfeccionismo calculado ao pormenor...
O arrependimento mostra um rosto devastador...
E a beleza não resolve nada...

Será possivel alguém odiar-se pelas escolhas feitas de livre e espontanea vontade?

Sonhos perturbadores...

Por vezes sinto que existe uma grande realidade nos sonhos...
Uma realidade tal que me confunde os sentidos...
Uma realidade que me relembra sentimentos... por vezes pouco recomendaveis...
Um acordar que te preenche com sentimento de culpa...
E que contradiz tudo aquilo que era para ti verdade absoluta...
Algo que te faz por em causa tudo e todos...
Algo que faz querer esquecer os teus principios e as tuas certezas...

O sonho de hoje virou o meu mundo ao contrario...
Encheu-me de duvidas e de pensamentos sordidos...
Lembrei-me da sensação boa que era ver um sorriso perfeito...
Perfeição esta que podia ser saboreada nos lábios unicos de uma recordação especial...

Desejei continuar a sonhar e resgatar tudo aquilo que estava a perder estando acordada...
Mas perdi-me pelo caminho em confusões personalizadas por outrem...
E tão frustrada me tornei que nunca mais encontrei o "norte"...

Picture of my own

"Save me
from this sadness it's coming
or take me
before my smile it's dissolving
wake me
from this nightmare i'm entering
don't let me fall in the corners of my own

As a tear comes from inside
I feel like i'm gonna drown
and as i'm searching for something to occupy my mind again
I lay
Down on my bed
But then a picture of my soul shows me
there's no way instead

touch me
make me feel i'm alive
or forget me
maybe i would die with time
love me
all i need is a hug
embrace me
'cause times are going too rough

and as i think i'm lost nowhere
i find where i am all alone
and as i'm desperating slowly just looking
at my night without stars
i pray
that someone could call
but then a picture of my own
tells me i'm made to fall

and it's a picture of my own
a picture of my own
a picture of my own
that's making me feel this way
and i'm so sorry babe
it's all so silent here
up here
here,here..."

S...

"Saudade é sentir que existe o que não existe mais... "

"I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!


Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody


I don't want to be..."